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I was getting a little nervous because I hadn't heard from my Anatomy & Physiology Professor and I need my book. School starts Tuesday! I am weird about having it "all in order". When my surroundings are organized, I feel as if I actually have control of my life. (I know ;)

 

Wednesday, I get this long ass email with an attachment of THIRTY TWO pages to study BEFORE Tuesday. She says we'll be going extremely quickly through the material and finishing chapter one on the first day. SO I have memorized the Ventral Cavity (and its contents), the Dorsal Cavity (and its goodness). Now I am on the Systems - Like Digestive, Urinary, Skeletal, etc. I still have tons more pages to memorize.

 

I bought my book from Amazon yesterday cuz they only sell them brand new at the bookstore (RIPOFF) A way to make money off the poor college students. It was $232 at school (And a lecture notes, lab notes booklet is an additional $67). I found the book used for $145. I paid $12 to have it shipped by Friday. I have the HOPE Grant and it pays for $50 towards books so it should cover the lab & lecture booklet. I hope.

 

I am broke as hell. Had to use Ma-Ma's credit card for the book.  I paid $55 from my Amazon account where I've earned money and I also transferred $100 yesterday. So all I owe her now is $213 for the ticket.

 

And my honey's car payment was due on the 13th. I have no funds for that even available. I get paid today & so does he, so hopefully that'll be enough for rent. And I have to pay his cell bill, the interlock fee....Whoa. Too much to think about huh?

 

Screw it. I cannot do a damn thing about it. I am here at work, aren't I? I’m in school trying to do better, aren't I? What else can I do exactly?

 

ON a happy note: Today is Ray's B-day (That's my stepdad- But not technically since my mom divorced him 5 years ago...He lives next door to my grandma, so he is still a frequent member in our life) Mom has mixed emotions about it. Some days she gets pissed saying that she doesn't want him around, some days she invites him for dinner. Who knows. We are all meeting at Ma-Ma's for cake...I'll have Miller Lit instead.

 

My book (daily devotional) was lame today. It said how the way you dress tells people who you are. Screw that. What if I can't afford to dress exactly how I think I am? I wear jeans & t-shirts & sneakers every day. They're clean clothes, but from Goodwill. And I look a little adolescent (I think). I have tons of clippings from magazines that I would love to have the money to buy: summer dresses, business suits, cute slacks, sandals & blouses...I am on a Goodwill budget so I look like I do because of that. I don't look scruffy, but I don't WEAR my personality.

 

Gooday Mates.

 

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Tuesday, Day Two Driving J

I really feel great today. I made myself walk 2 miles this morning (Using Leslie Sansone’s video). She is so perky. I have done her video in the afternoon and it doesn’t feel as effective. I suppose because I am so tired in the afternoon. And I’m ready to drink beer instead of exercise. 

I got up at 6:00 (instead of having to get up at 5:00 when mom as taking me to work). I did my 30 minute video, took a shower and had time to straighten my hair. I even got to work about 20 minutes early.

 

I let my car warm up this morning so the foggy stuff wasn’t on the windows. I could see out really good. I had to use my horn for the first time. A man pulled out in front of me on Gloster. NO ONE was behind me. SO I honked at him. That felt good.

 

My boss has been ill. Oh well. I won’t let his grumpy butt ruin my day this time. I let him get to me yesterday.

Charlie doesn’t feel good. We have no money to take him to the vet. He keeps going into his cage. I don’t understand it. The hot spot on his back looks better but Buddy wouldn’t leave it alone last night. He kept trying to nurse him & lick it.  I think he has an infection in his private area. It looks red and irritated and keeps licking it. What am I supposed to do? He has an ear infection, too. We rescued this dog from the street. We feed him well but cannot afford the vet. Should we have let him get put down instead of keeping him & loving him? I am distraught over it and so is my honey. He loves him but doesn’t know how we’re gonna take care of him. We can barely pay our bills right now.

I have to stop at Screenplay to return a late video tonight. I’ll just let my car stay cranked up. It is on my way home and even though I’m not technically supposed to stop there, I HAVE to. The damn video is 2 days late already.

 

Okay ya’ll. Have a good day. I’m gonna try to stay positive, too. My boss is gone most the day so at least I can sneak a smoke .

I drove for the first time in eight years today. I was nervous and jittery while I was getting ready for work. I wanted to get out early so I’d have enough time to blow into the breathalyzer (:P) and get on my way. I had to stop for smokes. I’m technically not supposed to, but I’m sure I’m allowed to get gas, right?

Don’t know how to work the de-frost. What do I used? Cold or hot air? Apparently not hot since it clouded up all the windows. I had to pull over before I got out of my neighborhood to let the defrost wok. I rolled down the windows.

 

I don’t like going over the speed limit. Everyone behind me couldn’t seem to appreciate that. I need a student driver sticker or something. All in all it was ok I guess.

I miss my little brother. He’s been in Texas for a week. I hope he’s home!

I miss riding with my mom to work, too…It is kind of weird. I guess I’m just so used to riding with her.

I’m really tired today. My honey & I took our dogs to Tallulah Falls this weekend. It was a brutal climb up the damn stairs. Up & Down….I had to carry Buddy because his little feet fell through the metal grids on the stairs. I bet there were several hundred steep stairs. It felt great when we were done, though. I got a great workout.

 

It is only 9:24 and I’m bored already. Guess I’ll go smoke.

It’s FRIDAY. Thank God.  This job is so boring. I feel like I’m wasting away here. But it’s a steady paycheck, so I deal.

Today, I will still try to smile at everyone and be approachable. And my own goal is to learn a different way of speaking. Specifically, I cuss too much.  I don’t curse at work when my boss is here. He gasps if I say “crap”…But my brothers have often told me it isn’t very ladylike. They cruse a lot too, though. It all starts in my head. My internal dialogue is laced with filth. Time for me to grow up.

Matt sprained his wrist. He’s on vacation in Texas. Apparently they wouldn’t treat him at the emergency room b/c he doesn’t have insurance. He had to call Ma-Ma for her credit card. Isn’t that some shit? Our health care system is screwed up.

I’m leaving at 12 today to go get my permit. My DL. After 8 years. I’m scared, really. But I am ready for the freedom of driving again, even if it’s only to school & work.  I hope it all works out. I have been disappointed so much when it comes to this stuff. I have had really bad luck when it comes to driving.

I have been feeling so fatigued lately.  I went to bed at 8:30 last night. What am I, a granny?? I think I’m fighting some kind of cold. My boss came to work all hacking everywhere. I went behind him & sprayed Windex on everything but some germs must have gotten on me. I think that’s a little disrespectful. If you’re sick…STAY HOME.

 

Talk to ya Monday…